Deciding To Give It All Up

I've been extremely happy with the way things are. Sometimes I can be depressed. Sitting in this room alone, cold, playing my Facebook games, snacking, crocheting, feeling alone. I had been for the past few months, trying to expand my life a little further from my means. It meant thinking outside the box; not being afraid to question whether there is a God? I read up some articles on DMT and it made a lot of sense. It's most likely what my dad felt before he passed. I've thought about the same thing. That perhaps all death is are brain chemicals firing... giving you a relaxing experience before you pass. All of this science, it all makes sense. Enough with God talk. Enough with being afraid of death. Enough with wasting what incredible life I have on stupid, inane crap. I want to get up and do something. I know I'm just disgracing my life here waiting for something to happen. Nothing is going to heal you, no one is going to rescue you. I try to encourage people to see how amazing their day could be by just trying a little bit. Just trying. Then it pisses me off on how lame and idiotic humans are. A fucking waste of breath. Easily amused by the simplest shit that doesn't server anyone purpose. Non-contributing zeros. It's what I aspire to not be. I don't want to leave this Earth not fully taking advantage of all that is around and placed HERE before us by our planet. Sure, there is crime. People can be sick and that's all I will say. Because you take people from this planet and every other animal would do fine on its own. The Earth does not need us. We are the dandruff to this planet, the infection. And it pains me to see lack of motivation in people. Just that, just lacking motivation. For anything. For science, for their own ability to learn. Nobodies. Nobodies. I'm deciding today to get rid of all my games. To cancel my Facebook, to find better things to do than waste my time on the internet. You know I just realized I wasted a good year or two on something as pointless as a social networking site. I could've been elevating myself in this life. I sure feel stupid. No more Facebook games. I don't want to talk anymore. I just want peace and quiet. I'm going to try and take walks now, read my books, crochet, paint, study, call people, finish my projects. It will give me peace of mind and I'll be happier. I'll still keep this blog up of course. I don't want to go completely crazy. That's it for now. It feels good to even take that first step in acknowledging it.


My Facebook Status:
After much thought, I realized I wasted a good year or two on something as pointless as Facebook. I could've done something better with my life. I sure feel stupid. No more Facebook apps/games/statuses. I don't want to talk anymore. I just want peace and quiet. Feel free to contact me or send me your contact info via phone, 832-468-8300 or email, ilovelorie@gmail.com. So long, and thanks for all the fish! :D