Atheism and Arrogance

The past few weeks all I've been enjoying is taking in all that science has to offer over a media like the internet. I've watched lectures on cosmology, biology, skepticism and photos of the galaxy that bring an entire new meaning to my already fascinating view of the cosmos. I remember a post I made a few days back on Face book. A friend of mine said some atheists can be very self-centered and arrogant. That they can sometimes be as annoying as fanatical christians. I haven't met any atheists to have been arrogant. And then I found myself ballooning up to that stature moments ago. It's as if the more you open your eyes to understand about the world, the more you frown upon the people who are so close-minded. You sometimes wish to force feed them what you know so they can finally see the truth about the world. Do I know the truth? Maybe. Maybe not. But what separates me from the theists is that I have the ability and freedom to change my belief system to whatever points to the right truth. If somehow God was proven, then I would say I had something new to research and discover on the opposing side. But the lack of people's surprise is what elevates my ego. The fact that I can toy with my friends on Facebook by posting up a funny picture or video. I get several people 'liking' or commenting. When it comes to a science post... it becomes quiet in the room.
So sad.
I told myself (and bobby)that I could honestly respect someone's religious beliefs... and I'm starting to think I may have lied unintentionally. Because its like one of those scenarios (just like Joe Stack, from the IRS building-crash plan)... he said in his note that sometimes you have to resort to violent measures in order to get people's attention. I can totally agree. Nobody wants to argue their side either because they are completely brain-washed by their beliefs, or they are not smart enough to understand that science disproves of their beliefs, or they are afraid of being wrong and being humiliated by not bringing enough to back up their beliefs. I think what frightened me was the thought of telling my 80 year old grandmother that I do not believe in God. Her weak heart and condition is a major reason. I do not want to influence any trouble on her body just by being arrogant and wanting to tell her what I feel. It pains me to, but I'm sure any other person would do the same. Bobby asked me yesterday 'what makes you feel you have a right to disturb other people's beliefs?' and I don't feel I have the right to do it, but I do. Just as they have a right to fight me on my beliefs. I don't know where I was going with all this. I think I really just wanted to express how angry I'm becoming, how arrogant. How this could possibly end relationships I hold with people. Maybe that makes me an asshole but it's like being around idiots. Nobody wants to have one way conversations with people. Because they go nowhere. So eventually I will have intellectual conversations with intellectual people and lose a bit of respect for my friends. Maybe we are arrogant and maybe it's okay. Life is too short to give a shit. Just enjoy it.