Cutting back on Atheism

I had a long discussion with Bobby about different aspects of religion and his/my opinion on why we think that way. Then when we are done talking, it leaves me asking why we event got into that conversation to begin with. We agreed to leave the topic out of discussion from now on. A part of me feels quite disappointed that I can't have someone to share my beliefs with. But a part of me equally feels that he should stick to his beliefs without me interfering. It pains me to know that we won't ever talk about it again... and furthermore the notion that deep down inside - he will most likely feel ashamed of me for being the way I am, even if he says he is not. He stands there, biting his lip and shrugs it is usually a 'Well, I don't care anymore'. I know that he cares, he just wants to be tolerant. It just makes me wonder how this will affect all our future outings. It leaves me feeling quite empty and alone. Maybe I shouldn't feel that way but sitting alone on my computer - reading up on all the great sciences makes me feel alone and pathetic. If I just had a few more close friends to do things with. Or if I could just put Atheism out of mind for a while. Maybe things will get better. Maybe I won't feel so alone.