Time To Dissolve

I've been wanting to blog for the past few days but got caught up either around company or at work. To my delight, I am back at CVS. Quite happy of it. They were glad to see me too and the money will help to get the ball rolling. I have been lost again. Displaced. Don't know where this emotion comes from all of a sudden. I feel bored, lethargic. My stomach has been giving me some trouble. I'm still trying to avoid fast food but it feels as though my stomach gets bigger by the day. Part of me wants to go there, we know where. But then I have to remind myself at how idiotic I've felt the past few times when all my tests were negative and I just felt like the shit bag of the planet. It makes me not want to have sex without a condom on. I've been feeling weird jerky movements, spazy and also I just don't want food sometimes. Worms maybe? Bah. Well. I was off for a few days and then I said I'd finish those crochet items and list them but 1. There is no money 2. Today is Bobby's birthday 3. We did absolutely nothing 4. I gotta shower and go to bed, I have work in the morning. I feel like I wasted an entire day crocheting crap and I could've done something with my day. So, in effect tomorrow and through the weekend, I'm putting up the yarn and I'm going to start reading some of my ebooks or novels on the shelf. I've been meaning to catch up on Sagan, Dawkins, Hitchens and Hawking. Heck, maybe I'll even read the drivers manual. Which reminds me by the way. I said I was going to try to save up money since I'm working again and start saving up for a car. There is a lot of shit I want to buy but I'm not going to go crazy. I must have self-control. I need a car. I need to see a doctor. I need to pay my school loans and we need curtains for our house a PS3. Remind me tomorrow that things get better. Play some Mondo Cane when you get home. Take a bath and just relax.

Next, next Thursday I'll be a few hundred richer. Sounds good to me.